Always planning - Never doing

I'm always planning. Not planning in an actionable way. Maybe planning is the wrong word.

I'm a consummate late bloomer and have too many interests for any one to hold my attention for more than what seams like a fleeting moment. I do a lot of reading on a wide array of subjects, and I'm always thinking up business plans, public policy, civic activity, community initiatives, and the list goes on...

These plans never turn into anything. I feel like i'm always building towards something better, or maybe the skills required of me to set the plan into motion are just out of reach. Like maybe I'll wake up one day and be motivated to finally learn how to code in javascript. I do this to myself probably in part because I'm not committed to any one idea enough to really devote the time to properly execute.

Knowing that I'm a late bloomer and that my interests change on a dime, maybe I'm non-committal in order to protect myself from jumping into something, then winding up with a half-hatched thinga-ma-jig that I no longer care about.

I won't stop planning though. Sometimes I like to think of it as scheming. Like it's a devious under taking - a way to escape from my day job. My plans are a kind of escapism. Where I can pretend that I'll help make a better world in a big way. This is what I plan to use this forum to write about. My big and little, business and civic, ground-breaking and whimpering plans.

Maybe one of these days I'll act on one of them.